i wana go home

i wana go home
i wana go home
i wana go home
...
i feel so lonely
its so hard....
to do everything all by yourself......
college+church+serving+work+assignments

it hurts,its painful..
tears just flow down my cheek whenever i think bout it..

God,you are my strength,you are my refuge,you are my fortress..

i miss MY family.

its so hard to be alone here,far far away from them..
life here is a cycle, and it keeps repeating weeks after weeks..even worst when you're family is not beside you..
its all me doing by myself,alone.

i wished-
dad is here>he makes me laugh with his kiddie actions.
mom is here>so she can tell me all the funny things that happened back at home.
lil bro is here>so he can chat with me.
lil sis is here>so i can laugh,cus she's cute!
ko is here>so he can take care of me,make sure i hav food to eat.
my car is here>so i can drive around ANYWHERE,without worrying of finding transport,or taking a cab or bus.

i love my family,i do.

i am VERY VERY TIRED

not complaining,
but expressing what am i facing now,how am i now..

morning-class
afternoon-rush on work 0r class
evening-church (practices)
midnite-rush on work again

n it repeats the whole cycle again everyday and day and day and day..

5 assignments due in 3wks (starting from now) ALL AT THE SAME WEEK!
please tell me that its not happening....
i should most probably be doing, mind floating, just my brain working on my moves and tell me what to do.

till now, i havnt cut my hair, shop all of my stuffs (which ive said it since 2wks ago?)
how awesome it is if i could just past all these happenings in just a blink of my eyes..
its really EXHAUSTING..

anyhow,im still gona thank GOD for his grace and mercy upon me.
no matter how,no matter what, for what i am doing now,through all trainings and experiences, i will be professional and successful in the future..oh yeah!I WILL BE. believe me.

busy life starting again

COLLEGE+PART TIME WORK+CHURCH+CONCERT PRACTICES=MY LIFE

College started this week-5subjects..
im gona face 3subs on the same malay lecturer(which im worried)..
i can't believe the school changed my elective subj with TYPOGRAPHY DESIGN 1..mr.seiko,i'l be seeing you again this semester!argh..
1.interactive programming (flash,thats good)
2.digital audio and video auditing (oh gosh)
3.MD2 (director,prepare to be bz)
4.typo design1 (mid nite oil again)
5.research methodology project (jenny,please don't be so harsh on us)

class times are weird this time, 9-12pm..12.15-3.15pm..3.30-6.30pm...nvm its always segi (i understand)

Part time work will be on mondays and fridays...i kinda love working there actually
salary wont be much(expected) but im expecting working experience better

its reali exhausting..
right now i need
-shopping(my needed stuffs-webdesign books,formal clothings,groceries,contact solution)
-hair cut(getting worst)
-GSC cinema!

im so stuck with work,college,church..not even a single minute to hav my time.. =(
but i stil thank God that i nvr got sick when im bz with tons of things..
his grace n mercy is sufficient for me.thank You God.

Regret?

Y did i say yes in the first place?
-my last two semester's coming up next...
(hard subjects)i don't know whether i can cope it or not..
Y did i say yes in the first place?
-got a sudden call for job interview which i never expected..
-i wasn't sure whether to work o not..
-couldn't get a right and clear answer..Haih

-church,college assignments(hard),christian club..+work!
i duno ah.........
everytime i wake up in the morning,i feel soooo tired...
no time to rest ah..
but i started working already..can't just stop like dat.. =(
nvm la..